The Lottery

It definitely takes me a trial and error process to catch onto the structure and rules of games, tasks, and activities. As we played the lottery game I went into it very clueless of how to manipulate my role and what strategies to use. I just followed until I left the room that I really got a hold of what was happening.

When a rebel rescued me in the night I thought I was being killed. When I got out I realized she wasn't an eye, she was actually a rebel, and I should be thankful to her for rescuing me, a handmaid. Once I realized that I was on the outside looking in I understood more and was more interested in what was going on inside.

When I was actually inside we made an executive decision to eliminate Madrie. We didn't know what she was, but it ended up being a good choice since she was an eye, killing others at night. There was no real reason why we did that, but it was towards the beginning of the game and not much had gone on. We were all uncertain of what was going on, so the confusion made us unite and do something  I wonder if we would have done the same thing if it was a real life situation  How far can uncertainty and fear take you? As more and more people were being killed and rescued we cheered for the rebels  that still remained. They finally killed the only eye left and the rebels won! Even with the victory there were some brave rebels and innocent handmaids that were killed before we had beat the eyes.

I got out without a scratch, but I didn't take the risk of becoming a rebel because of my lack of knowledge of what was going on If I was more certain I wish I could say I'd be brave enough to join the rebels, but I think I would have still taken the safe way out end let myself be rescued.

What are you?

As we categorized ourselves as lions, serpents, lambs, or angels during class I decided I was most like a lion class I decided I was most like a lion serpent. Categorizing myself as a violent lion, and deceiving serpent wasn't something i was embarrassed of or guilty about. I still think of myself as a good person  but I know that when pushed past my limits or when I feel threatened different qualities of my personality come out as an offensive form of defense.

As we broke off into groups I could see how each person's personality dud accurately fit the categories they were in. However, I wonder if any of the people who are usually gentle and kind would change their actions if something were at stake. I'd find it very unlikely for someone not to do everything possible to survive it protect themselves against trouble, since it goes against my own nature. Although, the people who do the "right" like refraining from violence and deception should be the people we respect. I find that in real situations I would probably consider those people weak, naive, innocent, scared or foolish.

Although I wouldn't promote violence and deception I think we all reach a point in life in which we understand that some situations call for more extreme actions if we hope to attain quicker or more assured results, rather than hoping that good deeds will lead us to a final reward. Being goof leaves us with less power in situations than when your actions are "bad" or manipulative. At the end of the day what ever we do doesn't end with the action, we will having feelings that follow our actions. Many decisions are strongly impacted by each persons conscious.